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15 years back,
we were young then, with laughter that filled our skies, no weight of the world, no need for disguise. We skipped through hours as if time would bend, and I believed our story had no end.
 
Do you recall the rain, when we both ran barefoot, your hair dripping wet, your eyes absolute?
The world spun in chaos, yet you made it still, like silence obeying a higher will.

Evenings blurred in cafés, with cups half-sipped, conversations so endless, and hours just slipped.
The sparkle of festivals, celebrations aglow, but your smile was brighter than any I know.
 
We argued like children, then laughed till we cried, you softened my edges, I lost all my pride.
In crowded corridors, your glance found mine, and in that moment everything else felt divine.
 
But life pulled us apart, with threads we couldn’t weave, what we wanted to hold, we had to leave.
Years rolled like thunder, yet one truth stayed, that memories of you did never really fade.
 
I’ve held hands, but they never fit like yours, I’ve opened doors, but never felt the warmth that was once ours.
I’ve slept in beds that never felt like home, I’ve sat with people, but felt alone, because the voice I wanted was never my own.
 
I’ve tried to forget, but memory is cruel, it rewrites every page, it bends every rule.
Even dreams betray me, they bring you near, and I wake with tears that no one should hear.
 
I miss you in traffic, when the red light refuses to change,and I wonder if distance will always keep us this strange. We talk, we pause, we pretend we are fine,but beneath every word is a longing that refuses to align.
 
I miss you in the way hunger disappears from food, rice and bread fill the stomach but not the mood,
the taste is bland, though the spices are true,because what gives flavor to life has always been you..!
 
Still, I thank the stars for the moments we stole, for they stitched me together when life took its toll.
Those fragments of joy, though scattered and few, are treasures eternal, all because of you.
 
And so I exist, half-empty, half-whole, carrying your laughter stitched into my soul. For love is not gone, it has simply transformed, a fire not raging, but quietly warmed.
 
If destiny were kinder, if time could be kind, I’d choose the same moments, rewound, realigned. But even in distance, one truth I confide—you were my haven, my reason, my guide
 
Yes, life has moved on, but not completely for me,because you are the chapter that refuses to be free.You’re the verse unfinished, the song unsung,you’re the silence after laughter, the breath left young.
 
I wonder if you think of me when the night feels long,if you hide a tear in the middle of a song.
Do you feel the weight of the years we’ve lost?Do you measure in silence what this longing has cost?
 
We cannot belong, you and the world made that clear, but still my heart whispers, you are always here. Because some loves don’t die, they just learn to hide, and some promises linger, though never applied.
 
So if one day our paths cross again, I won’t ask for reasons, I won’t seek when.
I’ll just stand in silence, let my eyes stay true, that fifteen years later, I’m still waiting for you…!!!
 
So let the years pass, let the world decide, the heart knows no rules, and love cannot hide.
And if tomorrow I wake with nothing to hold,at least I once lived a story untold….
 
Because in between sorrow, in between pain, were flickers of sunlight after the rain.
And though life denies us, one truth I embrace—happiness once wore your smile, your face.
 
Fifteen years of almost, of yearning unspoken,Of hearts intertwined yet quietly broken.
We lived side by side in our own quiet hell,A relation unconfessed, a story none could tell.
.Fifteen years of almost, yet still something new, stays something divine between me and you.!!
 

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